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Hello, nice to meet you. [06 Jan 2017|03:50pm]
silent_4_now
I am Sabrina. I am here to make friends that are like me and chat on chat hour or something. all of the people I know are against self harm. I used to be but I am starting to think it might be okay. I have been back and forth on this matter. I used to think self harm was a gateway to suicidal thoughts. but now I am thinking it was just because I didn't have anyone that felt like i did. so I am a pro self harmer again.
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Hi [03 Jan 2017|08:30pm]
spn_cutter
01. Whats your name?: Emily

02. Age, Birthday?: 14, November 19

03. Form of SI?: Cutting

04. Why do you SI?: Bored, triggered or upset
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: A year ago with a blade I found in my bathroom

06. Where do you most often SI?: Used to be my thighs but now. it's my arms and ankles

07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: Bedroom

08. What do you use?: Razor blades

09. Do you hide it?: Yes

10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Usually

11. Anyone know?: Yes

12. Eating Disorders?: Anorexia

13. Mental Disorders?: Depression, general anxiety and social anxiety, Possibly more

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Ask about it
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[26 Dec 2016|03:54pm]
aiereana
01. Whats your name?: Arianna

02. Age, Birthday?: 16

03. Form of SI?: Cutting and punching

04. Why do you SI?: I'm bored and empty feeling most of the time.

05. When was your first time? What did you use?: My first time was when I was 15 and I used a scissors.

06. Where do you most often SI?: My legs now, because my mom checks all the time.

07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My bedroom.

08. What do you use?: Razor blades

09. Do you hide it?: Yes

10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes

11. Anyone know?: Yes

12. Eating Disorders?: No

13. Mental Disorders?: Yes, depression, anxiety, and ADHD. Possibly more though.

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Ask about it
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[18 Dec 2016|01:11am]

im_never_me
01. Whats your name?: Val
02. Age, Birthday?: 13
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, burning, biting, punching.
04. Why do you SI?: There's lots of reasons. Mostly, because of my parents, stress, to punish myself, etc. And I can't stop, it's adictive af.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: The first time I did it I wasn't aware that I was selfharming but the first time I did knowing what selfharm was, when I was 11. I used my dad's new razor.
06. Where do you most often SI?: Legs.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My room. My school's bathroom. My bathroom. Anywhere, I just have to be alone to do it.
08. What do you use?: Lots of stuff.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes.
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Yes.
11. Anyone know?: Yes.
12. Eating Disorders?: Used to. But about to get in, again.
13. Mental Disorders?: Yes.
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would be really mad at her. It's kinda funny because I don't want to stop and I'm a pro selfharmer but I know this is fucked up and it's not for her.
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[17 Dec 2016|02:18pm]

teenbookthief
01. What's your name? Nia
02. Age, birthday? 13
03. Form of SI? Scratching, starving myself, vomiting
04. Why do you SI? Helps me feel in control
05. When was your first time? What did you use? Several months ago, I used the end of an old price tag.
06. Where do you most often SI? Arms
07. What room/area do you most often SI? My room
08.what do you use? Price tag
09. Do you hide it? Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI? No, why would I?
11. Anyone know? Yes, my parents, but they think I've stopped
12. Eating disorders? Yes, anorexia
13. Mental disorders? Aspergers, depression, general and social anxiety, possible undiagnosed ODD
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend? Well...I'd probably tell her I understand and I'm here for her if she needs me.
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[16 Dec 2016|10:22pm]
recovering01
01. Whats your name?: Sofia
02. Age, Birthday?: 14
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, Smoking
04. Why do you SI?: Helps me forget about my psychological pain.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: 3/4 years ago. A blade from a razor.
06. Where do you most often SI?: Legs, arms, hips.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My room, or if I'm not at home, bathroom.
08. What do you use?: Razor blade.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes.
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes.
11. Anyone know?: Yes, my ex-boyfriend who I don't talk to anymore. But somehow he knows that I still self harm.
12. Eating Disorders?: No.
13. Mental Disorders?: Potentially depression (major), but not professionally.
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Idk, I don't have friends. xD
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[12 Dec 2016|07:32pm]

askari_shadow
01. Whats your name?: Simon
02. Age, Birthday?: 15
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, pulling a razor across my cuts to cut the scars and scabs off
04. Why do you SI?: To feel happy and in control and it's oddly addictive and I crave it almost, like an escape or way of being able to think straight and feel bubbly
05. When was your first time? What did you use?:3 ish Years ago and blade from a pencil sharpener
06. Where do you most often SI?: Left arm from my elbow down
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: Bedroom, bathroom
08. What do you use?: Knife, blades from razors
09. Do you hide it?: Why wouldn't I?
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Nah
11. Anyone know?: Yes girlfriend and close friend
12. Eating Disorders?: Nope
13. Mental Disorders?: Depression
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Talk to them about it and make sure they are doing it safety and not risking an infection and suggest to speak to someone about it but tis up to them
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[11 Dec 2016|10:45pm]
ukulele01
01. Whats your name?: Quinn
02. Age, Birthday?: 15
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, filing skin down
04. Why do you SI?: The blood
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: 2 years ago, I filed my skin until it bled
06. Where do you most often SI?: Thighs
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My room
08. What do you use?: Razor blade
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Not usually
11. Anyone know?: Yes
12. Eating Disorders?: Used to be anorexic
13. Mental Disorders?: ADHD
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would be upset that they were feeling so bad that they feel the need to cut. Some of my friends do cut and I don't like that, even though I cut.
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[10 Dec 2016|10:35pm]

mckelle18
01. Whats your name?: Tori
02. Age, Birthday?: 13
03. Form of SI?: cutting
04. Why do you SI?: Its addictive and helps me cope.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: A year ago. I used pencils.
06. Where do you most often SI?: Wrists
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: my bathroom
08. What do you use?: Razor blade
09. Do you hide it?: Of course
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: No but I want to
11. Anyone know?: Yes
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: None dignosed yet
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: To be honest, I wouldn't care. My best friend cuts too. We talk about it to each other all the time but she isnt really the best person to talk to about it. She is a little self centered. But still, she is my best friend and I tell her everything.
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[08 Dec 2016|06:56pm]
robinmaes
01. Whats your name?: Robin
02. Age, Birthday?: 14
03. Form of SI?: cutting, pinching, burning, punching
04. Why do you SI?: To control my anxiety attacks and anger
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: 2 months ago (I'm kinda new) I used the blade of a pencil sharpener. burning 1 week ago I used a lighter. pinching 1 month ago I wanted to make a spot where I could just pinch and get a lot of pain at school when I needed it. Punching 2 weeks ago it is the fastest way of controling my attacks.
06. Where do you most often SI?:shoulders and ankles.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: my bedroom
08. What do you use?: blade of pencil sharpener, lighter, my hands
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Yes
11. Anyone know?: Yes
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: GAD (generalized anxiety disorder)
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would share my story so he/she can share his/hers
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[21 Nov 2016|10:12pm]

sarahkayleighx

1. what's your name?: Sarah:)
2. age, birthday?: 23 *I'm old*
3. form of si?: cutting, scratching, overdosing, infecting cuts
4. why do you si?: release of emotions, relief, addictive, safe coping mechanism (ok I know it's not safe - maybe comforting is more suitable)
5. when was your first time? Headbanging from 5, overdosing since 8, cutting/scratching since 11
what did you use?: wall/hairbrush to headbang, any tablets I found (years later I found out they were only antacids 🙈😂) and scissors to cut
6. where do you most often si?: thighs and stomach, very occasionally tops of arms (but only in winter and if I'm not going to any parties etc. Where theres a chance people will see)
7. in what room/area do you most often si?: I live alone so it doesn't matter to me
8. what do you use?: double sided razor blades or knives...if they aren't available then anything sharp and clean...or I repeatedly scratch the same area with my nail until it cuts and bleeds after scraping a few layers off...overdose with fluoxetine...I sometimes intentionally infect my cuts (with dirt, bodily fluids, strong cleaning products etc.)
9. do you hide it?: definitely, I'm a qualified psych nurse, so wouldn't be a good role model if people saw (hypocritical maybe? More empathetic/understanding definitely!)
10. do you listen to music while you si?: Depends if it's on or not...no preference
11. anyone know?: my girlfriend (obviously, she's supportive though), my supervisor at work (I was petrified of telling her but I was having a bad day and everything came out and she is so understanding)
12. eating disorders?: nope, I do have disordered eating (doesnt everyone?) But i like to keep my bmi high so others don't notice me/find me attractive
13. mental disorders?: Depression, OCD and anxiety (on fluoxetine for this), PTSD/childhood trauma, which im recieving therapy for
14. what would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I work with lots of people with mental illness and self harm issues so I guess my nursing skills would kick in...offer to be there if they want to talk, ensure they're safe, advise alternatives, educate them on controlled cutting and ensure they are sterile, try not to push them too much, just be generally empathetic and understanding and supportive

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[20 Nov 2016|04:36pm]
drowninggurl
01. Whats your name?: Emily

02. Age, Birthday?: 18

03. Form of SI?: Cutting

04. Why do you SI?: To feel something, I feel numb. I self harm for many different reasons, it depends on the situation. Sometimes I can just feel it in my veins and under my skin; a need to self harm.

05. When was your first time? What did you use?: 3 years ago - I used the serrated edge of a tape dispenser my very first time and then switched to blades.

06. Where do you most often SI?: Most often on my left upper/lower arm and wrist, but I self harm often in many other places; my entire left and right arms (from wrist to shoulder), thighs, hips, stomach, ankles,...pretty much everywhere except my face, neck, and back:

07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My bedroom. Also bathrooms (at home and in public if I need to)

08. What do you use?: Razor Blades.

09. Do you hide it?: Always.

10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes.

11. Anyone know?: No. My parents and close friends knew of my self harm a couple of years ago after I attempted suicide for the 5th time and was hospitalized. But no one knows now.

12. Eating Disorders?: Anorexia Nervosa

13. Mental Disorders?: Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, ADHD (Inattentive Type), Body Dysmorphia - those are all my current diagnoses.

Possibly have Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and/or Schizoid Personality Disorder - but those three have not been diagnosed by a professional.

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Probably nothing.
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New Here :D [20 Nov 2016|02:08pm]

nicotinesorrow
01. Whats your name?: Rhiannon
02. Age, Birthday?: 14
03. Form of SI?: Cutting
04. Why do you SI?: When ever I start feeling anxious, sad or angry those feelings build up and the only way to release them is...
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: A few months ago. I used the blade from a pencil sharpener.
06. Where do you most often SI?: Different places, upper left arm, right wrist, my thighs and my ankles.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: Bathroom.
08. What do you use?: Blades from expensive razors (Not as thin as disposable ones), but I'll use anything sharp if I have access to it.
09. Do you hide it?: At school and in public, yes. At home, I hide them but not as carefully because my mom doesn't really notice.
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes.
11. Anyone know?: My mom knows of the very first time and thinks I stopped. I've told two close friends but I believe they think I stopped.
12. Eating Disorders?: I recently started purging, so not totally sure that counts as anything yet.
13. Mental Disorders?: Depression, Social anxiety disorder, possibly Bipolar disorder (waiting on that diagnostic) and possibly ADD or ADHD (Been waiting on that one for a loooooong while).
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Ask her why, and tell her to try and stop but if it's stopping her from committing suicide, do it if she needs while encouraging her to stop.
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Love to talk but don't have anyone to talk too.. so Break The Silence and MESSAGE ME! [20 Nov 2016|01:15am]

ivy_bloodstone
What's your name?: Sabrina
Age, Birthday?: 17 ( Not for long ) , November 24th
Form of SI?: Cutting, burning
Why do you SI?:  I cant control myself when im upset, also I like the look and feel.
When was your first time? What did you use?: Cutting; 6th grade, I used Crayola scissors. Burning: 8th grade, used a lighter and the end of a bobby pin.
Where do you most often SI?: My house but Id do it anywhere if I feel the need too.
In what room/area do you most often SI?: My room
What did you use?: Razor, Lighter, bobby pin, candle wax, glass, hair straightener...
Did you hide it?: NOPE
Do you listen to music while you SI?: Yes, Music is my everything.
Anyone know?: Yup I dont hide it so if people ask I just say yah
Eating disorders: No
Mental disorders: Probably but havent been made offical
What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Tell them I understand, if they want to talk about it I'm here.

"Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort, Suffocation, No breathing, Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, Bleeding, Do you even care if I die bleeding? Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight, Chance are that I might, Mutilation outta sight, And I'm contemplating suicide" Papa Roach- Last Resort

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endless grey. [17 Nov 2016|02:08am]
madriding
What's your name? My nicknames are Rocky and Russia
Age, Birthday?: 17, October 9
Form of SI?: Cutting, purging, burning
Why do you SI?: I cut/burn to release my negative emotions and I purge because I hate my body
When was your first time? What did you use?: My first time was in 9th grade. I used a serrated bobby pin to scratch myself
Where do you most often SI?: My house
In what room/area do you most often SI?: My bathroom
What did you use?: Lighters, hot forks, knives, scissors
Did you hide it?: Yes
Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes
Anyone know?: My mom and 2 school friends
Eating disorders: EDNOS
Mental disorders: Schizoaffective
What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I don't have a best friend, but I would tell anyone who cuts that I know what they've been through, and I'd offer to clean up. If anyone here wants to talk or just needs someone to vent to, I will always be here. :)
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new member [16 Nov 2016|07:01pm]
isad_sadie
1. what's your name?: sadie
2. age, birthday?: 15, november
3. form of si?: cutting, pulling, picking
4. why do you si?: cutting: for the blood/i like to feel the ridges afterward, pulling: stress, picking: mindless
5. when was your first time? pulling/picking- 5 years ago, cutting: around 8 (actually started about a month ago though)
what did you use?: scissors
6. where do you most often si?: farther up my arm, thighs, ankles
7. in what room/area do you most often si?: bedroom
8. what do you use?: razors, knives
9. do you hide it?: yes
10. do you listen to music while you si?: sometimes
11. anyone know?: no
12. eating disorders?: none
13. mental disorders?: never diagnosed
14. what would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: tell her to come to me next time she hurt
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new member [03 Nov 2016|08:18pm]
hiddenfallacies
1. what's your name?: sarah
2. age, birthday?: 17, december 22
3. form of si?: cutting, picking, bruising
4. why do you si?: makes me feel something, distraction from mental pain, i deserve it
5. when was your first time? a year and a half ago
what did you use?: kitchen knife
6. where do you most often si?: thighs, ankles, stomach, shoulders, forearms
7. in what room/area do you most often si?: bathroom, shower, bedroom
8. what do you use?: box cutters, razor blades, kitchen knives, utility knives, nail clippers, scissors
9. do you hide it?: yes
10. do you listen to music while you si?: sometimes
11. anyone know?: a few people
12. eating disorders?: none
13. mental disorders?: major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety, insomnia
14. what would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: offer to help them take care of themselves and offer routes of recovery if they so desire.
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Hello new here [01 Nov 2016|11:38am]
crimsonchinnnn
01. Whats your name?: Alexandra
02. Age, Birthday?: 22
03. Form of SI?: Unconventional meathods. Burning, cutting, choking
04. Why do you SI?: I feel like it helps me. I dont want to stop.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: 12 or 13. I made thin small cuts all down both arms. My mom found out and kept my secret.
06. Where do you most often SI?: Thighs and arms.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?:Bathroom
08. What do you use?: Cigarettes , boiling water, knife.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes but not always
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Never
11. Anyone know?: Husband and his siblings. My mom knows but she pretends not to
12. Eating Disorders?: Undiagnosed
13. Mental Disorders?: No, childhood trauma
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Try to help her. She cuts too actually
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Yeah.... [16 Oct 2016|07:26pm]

rose01nicole
[ mood | numb ]

01. Whats your name?: Rose
02. Age: 15
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, hitting, burning
04. Why do you SI?: I'm not good at dealing with hard things. It detracts me from things I don't want to deal with
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: I was 11 years old. I used a pair of small blue scissors
06. Where do you most often SI?: My arms
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?:Bathroom
08. What do you use?:Box cutters and razor blades
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?:Nope
11. Anyone know?: My family and friends
12. Eating Disorders?: Bulimia
13. Mental Disorders?: Never been diagnosed
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Try to help them to stop. Be a total hypocrite

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Hi I guess... [11 Oct 2016|11:15pm]

space_catz
[ mood | listless ]

01. Whats your name?: Paige
02. Age: 22
03. Form of SI?: Cutting, punching, scratching, hair pulling
04. Why do you SI?: Started out as a way to punish myself, then that turned into a way to express powerful emotions, and now it's to actually FEEL something because of how much I dissociate...
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: Well, I've been hitting myself/bashing my head into walls since I was like 5, but as for cutting, I was about 11 and I used a paring knife
06. Where do you most often SI?: My thighs. It used to be my arms, but since I have a full time job I have to hide everything...
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My bed
08. What do you use?: Replacement box cutter blades
09. Do you hide it?: Of course. Not that anyone really cares THAT much.
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Every time.
11. Anyone know?: My family thinks I've fully recovered, and my partner think's I'm currently recovering. Oops.
12. Eating Disorders?: Anorexia since I was about 11
13. Mental Disorders?: OCD, PTSD, and Bipolar disorder
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Part of me would want to ignore it because I know I HATE when people point out my cuts, but another part of me would be like "um dude, you need to knock it off". So I guess I'm not sure.

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